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Update!
Blood Choice is updating in the mornings now, as it's easier for me to remember to do it that way. We're up to page 20, and getting near the end of part 1 of four. Whee.

http://bladespark.topcities.com/story

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sometimes the hardest things
are often the easiest
but hard for us to see
what it means to other people
to do what you got to

life is a survival game
a game of chance
and one of skill

a million blessings but
not one god to fortitude

trying my life at a lottery wheel
scratching off that winning ticket
and it wont reveal
my true prize of solitude

my josie is my winnings
and i am gambling with my life
to bring her happiness
in this unbearable world

a million blessings

but not one god to fortitude.

2008 Paulinerose Evans

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Cherry Coconut bars *allrecipes.com* ( i want to make these!)
DIRECTIONS

1. In a bowl, combine flour and confectioners' sugar; cut in butter until crumbly. Press into a lightly greased 13-in. x 9-in. x 2-in. baking pan. Bake at 350 degrees F for 10-12 minutes or until lightly browned. Cool on wire rack.
2. For filling, combine the eggs, sugar and vanilla in a bowl. Combine flour, baking powder and salt; add to the egg mixture. Stir in walnuts, cherries and coconut. Spread over crust. Bake for 20-25 minutes or until firm. Cool on a wire rack. Cut into bars.

NGREDIENTS

* 1 cup all-purpose flour
* 3 tablespoons confectioners' sugar
* 1/2 cup cold butter (no substitutes)
* FILLING:
* 2 eggs
* 1 cup sugar
* 1 teaspoon vanilla extract
* 1/4 cup all-purpose flour
* 1/2 teaspoon baking powder
* 1/4 teaspoon salt
* 3/4 cup chopped walnuts
* 1/2 cup quartered maraschino cherries
* 1/2 cup flaked coconut

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Has 40 years changed anything??
"When the strongest nation in the world can be tied down for four years in a war in Vietnam with no end in sight, when the richest nation in the world cannot manage its economy, when the nation with the greatest tradition of the rule of law is plagued by unprecedented racial violence, when the President of the United States cannot travel abroad, or to any major city at home, then it's time for new leadership for the United States."...

..Nixon in his acceptance speech.  Funny how the Rep. party was flipped from being the liberal one...remember the "dixiecrats" and George Wallace standing in the school door?? Ok..maybe not..but I do.  Somewhere along the way .. the party of Lincoln ..became the party of Bush. 

At least Obama has proved to the world that cross cultural children are acceptable. 

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Clockwork Heart E-Book
You can download Clockwork Heart as an e-book from Fictionwise now. It's offered at a 15% discount this week. Pass it on!

Also, although I haven't seen the full review from Romantic Times yet, here's the excerpt from the Juno Books website:

"Escape to the fantastic and captivating three-tiered city Pagliassotti has created. The plot is intricate and has multilayered characters who perplex, entertain, and gratify. This is a wonderfully written book — one for the keeper shelf."

Oooh, I'm hoping that's gonna drive up sales a little! :-)

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every time there is a natural disaster [re: yesterday’s earthquake in china], i’m reminded of nature’s absolute power and the inevitable destruction that follows.

whether its earthquakes, tsunamis, hurricanes/tornados/cyclones/typhoons, volcanoes/lahar, limnic eruptions, floods, landslides, heat waves, wildfires, hail, blizzards, avalanches [did i miss anything? meteorites?]… humans are no match.

and i always think of the pailhead song, man should surrender-

You engineer the stratosphere
You command this hemisphere
But water will still come
Man should surrender

Rearrange forms of life
Battle night with your lights
But water will still come
Man should surrender

Flying boxes through the air
Dropping cities everywhere
But water will still come
Man should surrender

Fire made for all to burn
Foolish end for all concerned
But water will still come
Man should surrender

Surrender now

Current Mood:
contemplative contemplative
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OMG i'm having a panic Attack....
Flickr is down!!! 

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Book Review: 'Atonement' by Ian McEwan
Part I
B. has always been intrigued by stories. A nine-year-old can't articulate as many ideas as he would wish, but he will sit before his writing implement of choice (IBM-Compatible PC) and address the world with as much earnest desire as any adult counterpart.

He knows there is a lot more to life than the fantasy novels on which his first efforts are (poorly) constructed, but he does not know enough to write another kind of novel. Still, he has made up his mind: eventually, he will write something grand, and fantastic, and he will graciously and humbly accept all of the accolades heaped upon him. Because it isn't about the attention; it is about the art. He doesn't know the phrase l'art pour l'art, but he believes he has internalized it as his koan.

His chapters are sometimes constructed of multiple paragraphs, and while he feels that some sort of romantic element should be included, he really has no idea what to do with it. That subplot will simply be tabled until the next draft.

 

 

Part II
B. is in his early twenties, home from another state and visiting with his family. The time and distance has not been kind, and he is wearied by life after the great college party. (Though, in fairness, he grew bored of those during his time of indoctrination.)

He is at home, but it is not home: though he spent a summer sleeping on his parents' couch in 1997, this was the house into which they moved after his high school graduation. His home is somewhere back on 507, gathering weeds. He's slowly building his own concept of home, in another state, in his adult life; it's slow going.

In the meantime, he runs a small website with an intrigued fanbase. Literarily bold and incisive, his work is an exploration of form, context and medium. His writer friends either stared, confused, or stared, consternated, as he had explained the concept of the infinite digital canvas and merging multiple tributaries of narrative text into a single river of thought.

His parents inform him: his little sister, finally in elementary school, has started working on a novel. He surreptitiously reads the first couple of paragraphs (heroine searching for her kidnapped older brother) and his heart breaks.

 

 

Epilogue: May 13th, 2008 )

Current Music:
U2: "Red Hill Mining Town"
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Countdown to Toronto: 5
5 days
(including this one!)

Am I packed yet? No. I do have quite a bit done though. After I'm finished editing this post, I'll be doing some more sorting (I almost feel like donating everything away!) and pack the remainder of boxes, perhaps, before daylight. I'm not able to sleep anyway.
Did I have to get my breast cyst drained a second time on Monday? Yes. The doctor said it's getting smaller and he's been able to press a lot of icky stuff out, but he described something about how part of it looks like a honeycomb. How poetic, in twisted doctor fashion.
Are we going three for three on Wednesday? Maybe. Most likely. Since I'm moving away on Saturday that doesn't give him much time to beat the infection, so here's hoping that the antibiotics combined with the DRAINAGE will make a difference.
Would I like some chocolate? Yes, please.

Historic Entrance to Trinity Bellwoods Park
I believe I've mentioned more than enough times how much I love this park. I feel incredibly lucky that Cliff was able to find a place in the same area, where, in fact, we'll be just as close to it as to where he lived before.

Click here to view what it looked like in 1916!

22-01-2008 1-48-08 PM

Recession! Don't you dare use that word!
I found this quote from a guardian article interesting:
"John Silvia, chief economist at the US bank Wachovia, said the rebate cheques were unlikely to be sufficient: "Does it help? Yes, but it doesn't really get you back to trend. It doesn't tackle fundamental problems such as housing or jobs." He said employment was a key long-term factor and the boost would not provide long-term satisfaction: "This is better than kissing your sister but it's not like having a good time."

22-01-2008 1-48-41 PM
[22 January 2008]

Current Mood:
stressed stressed
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The Solitary, by Mary Barnard
The Solitary
by Mary Barnard

The lone drake, upended,
nibbles the pond bottom,
red legs paddling the air.

He sleeps on the rock wall
by the spillway, balanced
on one foot, head hidden.

In the shadowed shallows
under sycamore boughs
the encircling ripples

have one center: himself.
Intruders, including
mallards of his own race,

beautiful strangers, drive
him to frenzied attack,
quacking, snapping, churning

the pond. When they have gone
bright wavelets unbroken
to the rim spread around him.

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The Harrow: Original Works of Fantasy and Horror
The Harrow: Original Works of Fantasy and Horror is back up!

It took a couple of days to realize that dreamhost.com had changed something, and either didn’t know or wouldn’t admit it. The OJS folks (thanks alec) really helped to fix things up.

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[Dresden]: Evacuation.
A tall, blond and impeccably dressed man steps into the Speaker Lounge. A few of us are crammed into this tiny room, pounding upon laptops in an attempt to stay ahead of the digital slush pile accumulating back in the United States. We glance at him with little interest when he starts to speak (in English, with an accent).
"I am sorry to interrupt, but I must inform you of a small matter. A bomb has been found outside of the conference center, I am afraid we must evacuate at once."
We stare at him dumbly for a moment. Finally, one of us blurts out: "You're serious." It isn't a question.

The man nods anyway. "A World War II bomb, the construction crew found it." We'd seen (and not heard) the construction crews working outside the windows all day; any doubt we had was immediately erased. "Please gather your things and evacuate ... )

I still have a hard time wrapping my mind around it; the story sounds as though it should have happened to someone else. And yet, I was in the right place at the ... well, at an interesting time, if not the right one.

Current Music:
Enigma: "Boum-Boum"
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Two little girls, two goats, friends, beer.
Nice weekend. [info]oponn Came out with the flame-haired one and rescued me from the screen. There was hanging out and drinking, sitting around a fire, a trip out in the RV for the tanks, a fantasticly collaborated steak and potatoes meal Saturday night, and Velvet Goldmine. Mike made coffee and kept me conscious the whole time, as sleep eluded me.

The kids collected injuries like they were rare stamps, waiting to be claimed: Knocked heads, skinned knees, bruised shins, scratched noses, bruised cheeks... They weren't even being particularly rowdy, it was all just not paying attention and tripping over or running into stuff, including each other.

Nemo was being particularly noisy over a shin bruise she got, Sue & I were a little worried that it might be more than a bruise, as she cried when she put weight on it, but not consistently. Sue sat her on the bed and Bev gave her some kid's ibruprofen.
TWO seconds after drinking it, Nemo is all "It's all better!" (Sue makes strangling motion). Later I hear "Mommy, Bev's a HERO!"

Cute. Goats got hoof clippings, though not good ones, as I ended up doing it myself as Mike had sequestered himself with a fierce round of allergies. Helped people in the yard a bit and gave the kids a ride on the wagon. We had the goats out and they were eating things they weren't supposed to, so I tied them to the wagon as well. Not the best idea, as the wagon tipped over, likely due to the goats, dumping Mercy & Nemo into the dirt. Ironically, no injusries that time, though I had to wipe off Mercy's tongue, as she got a mouthfull of sod. *trying not to laugh*

The best was after Mercy skinned her knee, & kept saying 'owieowieowie' more for attention than any pain. Charlie's all "Bev, get the saw, we'll have to cut it off." Bev goes aroudn back to get it.
"NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!" Mercy sprints, without limping, to the other side of the house to stop her. Bwahahaha.

Anyway, a much-needed break from a very big pile of work that needs doing. Thank you, Sue, for coming out!

Current Mood:
tired tired
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It's the new Stuff White People Like! Things Younger Than McCain include: Spam, Alaska, plutonium, Bugs Bunny, the Polio Vaccine, FM Radio, and Dick Cheney.



Today I wore two different shoes to work. I slipped into my shoes in the dark, wore them around the house, ate breakfast, walked 10 blocks to the train station and then realized that I was wearing one black loafer and one brown Skechers slip-on. Thankfully I had two matching shoes under my desk at work. No more putting on my shoes in the dark.




dining room table dinner
mango and fried tofu salad with cilantro dining room table

Clockwise: flowers from my mom - sausage, peas, 'n noodles - cilantro, mango and fried tofu salad - our new dining room table.


I'm having a hard time finding a dress to wear to graduation. I bought these four and I'm hoping one of them fits: Smooth Finish, Green Poppies, Spring Has Sprung, and Green Floral Halter.

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Take a stroll through memory lane . . . .
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Picturing ladies moblizing
A good friend of mine has a good friend who's gravely ill. He's not getting much support of any kind at home. He's still got to cook his own meals and his wife tells people to stop fussing over him, he's not sick. It's a sorry situation the person in question doesn't deserve.

Scott and I were talking about it in the kitchen today and I said "You know, the good thing about both of our families is that if one of us got really sick grandmas would be getting on planes."

Scott agreed with me. I told him that my mother's club would swing into action.

I then got this picture in my head of a bunch of women in 1950's dress with those aprons that you pull over your head. They're all milling around a big kitchen when one of them suddenly stops and softly claps her hands.

"Ladies? Ladies! Emergency stations! Code C! Thelma? Get the Freezes Beautifully cookbook. June? Start browning hamburger please. Marion? Activate the phone tree."

Then about 15 minutes later they all decent on the ailing person's house with casserole dishes and dust mops to whisk children off to be played with, pat hands, vacuum and fill the freezer. They post a schedule of who will be coming to help look after the kids in the afternoons, put one of the casseroles in the oven, kiss everyone and say "We're just a phone call away!"

They fix their lipstick and zip off to start a small change collection fund for the family.

I'd be the one chopping onions.

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Today was a bitch
What normally I can do in 8 hours for payroll.. took me 12+ hours today.. I'm exhausted..

ooh and the older kid called at 530am this morning..then harassed ME for being old..

KIDS!!

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